Some people from a well known Christian organization asked me for some money and it really annoyed me. At first I could not put my finger on it, but then I realized why it got under my skin. The people asking me to support them were living the same lifestyle as me, maybe even better. That is when I realized I was hypocrite. I was mad at them for spending "my" money wastefully and not using it for the gospel work effectively. The problem is that it is not "my" money, it is God's money.
This did not make me want to support them, but it made me realize that I was going to be held accountable for the way I was spending God's money in at least the same way as I was expecting them to spend it. "My" money may come from a secular company, but it is God who provides it. It is never a good thing when if you were your own judge you would be found guilty.
Recently, I was reading about Hezekiah and realized what I think God is trying to tell me.
Hezekiah prospered in all his works. And so in the matter of the envoys of the princes of Babylon, who had been sent to him to inquire about the sign that had been done in the land, God left him to himself, in order to test him and to know all that was in his heart (2 Chron. 32:31).Like Hezekiah, I have been successful in life with no lack of material goods and more than I need. I believe in my heart that I really want to serve the Lord, but I keep having these nagging thoughts that I am not giving enough or that I am missing something. God gave Hezekiah great riches and success and left him to himself to see what he would do with them to see what was in really in his heart. In the end he showed them to Babylonian's who would eventually take Judah into captivity. I don't want my story to the end the same way as Hezekiah's, failing the test.