Important decisions are hard to make. Just last week I found out that they are closing the office where I work, which means I will have to find a job. There are several options including going to a different country to work. These decisions needless to say have caused me great anxiety, which always reminds me of these verses, "The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus (Phil. 4:6)."
The immediate reaction to these verses is to rationalize them. Maybe we say we are not actually anxious or that it only applies to certain situations. Although it would be great if that were true it is most likely not the case. The truth is we don't trust God as much as we should. We know that He is our creator and is in control of every bit of our life. Also, there is nothing in this life that can harm us since we know that what is waiting for us is so much better, even though it can be hard to imagine sometimes.
"So we do not lose heart. Though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed day by day. For this slight and momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal (2 Cor. 4:16-18)."
It may seem at times that God is silent whenever we need guidance on a big decision but we know that if we commit our way to Him and trust in Him that He will act (Ps. 37:5). The purpose of these problems that come into our life may not be as much about the decision as it is in how we wait while the decision is being made. Hopefully, this time I will finally learn to let go of my anxiety and trust that God will make His way clear at just the right time.